Posted in February 2013

1 Week.

Today, it has been 1 week since we found out the news that has changed our lives forever.  Last night, I experienced severe cramping and it was the worst pain I had since the surgery.  I had already planned on going back to work today, so I’ve just been doing my best to ignore the pain and … Continue reading

A Day Of Closure.

Yesterday was a nightmare. Nothing can prepare you for the emotions that you will feel when you are told you lost your child, nor for the emotion you will feel as you are prepped for surgery to remove the pregnancy. Last week started like every other week, I could have never imagined what I was about to … Continue reading

Outstanding Support & Encouragment

I just wanted to take some time out to talk about the overwhelming support and encouragement Mark and I have received. At first, I was a little unsure about sharing this type of news with everyone on my Facebook and tried to talk myself out of it. I asked Mark’s opinion about it as well as my mother and some friends. … Continue reading

Where do I go from here?

There are no words to describe the emotions that I feel. I am still in a state of shock, and I know this isn’t easy for Mark either. There really is no way for someone to understand the pain that you go through when you lose a child you never got to meet, unless they … Continue reading

Heartbroken…

I actually wrote this post on Thursday, February 21st but did not post it until today. Today has by far been the worst day of my life. I am sitting here right this with tears streaming down my face and I am over taken with sorrow. We found out that I miscarried today at 8.5 weeks. My … Continue reading

Emotional Rollercoaster & Mood Swings

I’m ready to get off of this rollercoaster now! I have never experienced such crazy, intense emotions before. I have always just been a happy person, even through the dark days I was generally happy so it’s very odd for me to feel sad. Of course, if I see little bean and possibly the heartbeat on … Continue reading

Prayers Needed

This waiting game has been agonising for me. I find myself going to work and worrying all day long and coming home and just wanting to crawl into bed so the day will end sooner. There is nothing more important to me right now then this bean inside of me. I cheer him/her on everyday … Continue reading

The Waiting Game..

I am not a huge fan of the waiting game. I’ve never been good at it either, but these past months have really tested my limits and made me realize how much patience I lack. I feel as though this is different though, maybe not for everyone but for me this is going to be … Continue reading

Spilling the beans

I feel like I have waited forever for these moments and I cant believe I am actually being able to experience them! Although I left the doctor’s office on Thursday feeling confused, scared and happy all at the same time. I decided I was still going to surprise Mark the way that I had always dreamed of … Continue reading

Say it isn’t so!

So I havent posted in a couple of days because honestly I have been in complete shock. I think I have felt every emotion we have as human beings in the last few days and I’m not going to lie, it’s a lot to take in. Well…I’m pregnant yall!! It’s crazy how in one month I … Continue reading